I hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Blessed New Year! It's hard to believe that it will be our first Christmas without Bethany and her first Christmas in heaven. The amazing thing is that she gets to celebrate with Jesus, the angles, and all of our loved ones that have gone to heaven as well. Nothing could be better than that! I know many families that have lost a child recently and are going through their first holidays as well. I pray for those of you who are feeling a very deep whole in your heart like we are. I don't know how the next few days will go, but knowing that God is
with us brings me peace and hope that I'll make it though. The last few days I've been pretty emotional and feel almost like I'm walking around in another world. I want to be happy and joyful for Emily and Dillon's sake and not going through Christmas as Scrooge.
God, I pray that you help me find joy this Christmas in the mist of the deep pain in my heart.
